The Fifth Nail

I watched an episode of 20/20 - or was it Dateline? I wasn't paying that much attention, I'm still wrapped up in The Stand - tonight which featured a story about one of those child kidnapper/rapists we hear so much of in the news lately. It seems every week that there is a new story of some sweet faced little girl being kidnapped and then a month later that same little girl is found and we are all so happy and suddenly full of hate again toward some new rapist who is ( SHOCKINGLY!! ) within her very own town! When will we as a country recognize the pattern?: there is no way to rehabilitate a sexual offender. Putting them out on the street only endangers those around them. Especially when they work in public schools... yeah.

...come on Nicole, stay on topic...

So, many times during the program, they talked about this guy, Joe sumthin's "web log" (as if they had never heard the word, 'blog' before) and quoted from it. I was waiting for something really shocking (because they said there would be... I don't know why I believe these people like I do...) to come out of it, so I looked up when they did quote from it. After a couple times a kind of misty recognition tried to spark up on the flint of my mind and suddenly it did.

"Holy God... That's on Blogger."

My parents gave me a kind of weird look so I had to explain that I had one on the same site - oh shit, they're gunna look for it now. Note to self: Self, look for incriminating things. - So, of coarse, I went looking for it. And found it. Google. One stop searching.

I'm surprised it still exists - thought the police would have shut it down or something... he's on trial for murder... but I guess not. - and I'm a bit creeped out, but for some reason I'm going to read it. Something compels me to do so. Maybe it will teach me something?

Something about it being called "Blogging the Fifth Nail" bothers me. You see, as the story goes, those who made the nails to crucify Jesus were supposed to deliver five nails to the Romans, not four. They hid the fifth from the Romans, the one that was supposed to pierce his heart. For that, some say they were punished for making him suffer a more torturous death and some say they were rewarded for protecting him. It bothers me that this man relates himself to either Jesus or the gypsies who tried to protect him. It always bothers me when bad people use their religion to shelter themselves from the blame. God didn't make you do any of that and would never have wanted you to. That was the Devil's work.

Anyways, I'm going to read this very long regression of this man's soul, as I see it. Hope I don't have nightmares.

Laters.